Sweet Memories

The theme of this week’s Sunday Stills, is Lazy Days. Well…I don’t think that I ever been called lazy in my whole life. I’ve been called a lot of things, but never lazy. I like to stay busy. Not in the nervous I can’t relax kind of way. I just feel satisfied when I work with my hands; in the garden, baking bread, grooming a horse etc.

There’s only been one exception, and I enjoyed that exception immensely. It was the first six months of my daughter’s life. The oxytocin high from nursing put me in a content emotional state, that was very relaxing, in a way that I hadn’t experienced before. I rented a house in the beautiful Napa Valley (CA.) It was nestled among vineyards, in a picture perfect setting. There was ten acres belonging to the house, (and the neighbors had a bigger property that I had access to as well.) My daughter and I went for long, dreamy walks, and spent hours on the back porch over looking the pond in the picture. Those are the closest to lazy days that I have ever experienced. I don’t want to go back to them, but I sure appreciate the sweet memory. Looking back, it feels almost unreal.

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A sweet senior dog that adopted me, on the first ranch I worked at in California, is buried overlooking this pond. Neikka was old when I first met her, around 12-13 years old. She refused to leave my side. I knew her almost two years before her time was up. She was definitely sent to make things easier for me. She had problems with her eyes when we met, and later on she became completely blind. That did not stop her from doing her duty, which she thought was to be by my side, no matter what. I sometimes tried to lock her up in my yard (3acres,) if I was planning on going for a longer trail ride, that I thought was going to be too much for her. The fence was 6 ft high. She was part greyhound, and cleared that fence, even after she became blind. One time she even attacked a black bear that she thought was too close to me. The bear wasn’t actually a threat, he was busy eating blackberries. The bear just pushed her away, and kept eating. Lucky for us. She got some scratches from the incident, but not bad. She certainly deserved the most beautiful resting place my loyal Neikka. 

How is your weekend so far? Fancy left for her new home yesterday, and I received photos of her in her new home. Her new family is very happy, and she looks happy, which makes me happy.  I know that they are going to love her a lot, and I feel extremely good about her home. Ghost’s home fell through, and I need to find him a new one. Sooner than later. I said no to several people after this family committed to him, because I really liked them, and they seemed knowledgable. I’ve started to contact the people I turned down before..It was a very emotional day. It ended in the best possible way with a visit to a Mexican Restaurant I hadn’t been to before, and the company of a good friend. 

I’m going to work hard on a home for Ghost, and finding a reliable car for me today. I looked at some cars yesterday. I’m not a mechanic, but if I find something questionable with a car, it’s probably not a good car..lol. Since I am going to drive through the desert a week from now it need to be a good one. Some places on the way have spotty cellphone reception. 

I hope that you’re having an awesome weekend! 

Love,

Ms Zen

Sunday 

The Carr Fire was 145,015 acres,  and 41% contained according to the last numbers from yesterday. I’m still wearing a mask outside, but besides that, I do not feel immediately threatened anymore. The fire have been moving towards the west side for about a week. There’s no longer any fire close to me. My bags are still packed, and I am ready to go if the wind changes.

How is your weekend so far? I went to school all day yesterday, and updated my Pediatric CPR and First Aid Certificate (AED education included.) It was a few years ago since I did it last time, and I like to have something that important fresh in my mind. When seconds matters to save a life, you can’t afford to hesitate. In the state of California there’s no law requiring a teacher to have CPR and First Aid Education! I think that is insane!! I could not imagine not having it. It was a great class, with wonderful teachers. I’d say that it was better than the last time I took it, at a different location. 

There are a lot of things you don’t control in the world.  But one thing you always do:  you can change your perspective to how you can solve problems and add value for others.  Because then your prosperity is assured. (I don’t know who said this, but I read it at some point, and saved it in my “inspiration file”, and found it this morning.)

My daughter have recently expressed a desire to spend more time with her dad, and start school there. It has not been an option for her until now (she’s always lived with me.) I am raising a strong daughter, and I want to support her in any way I can. In reality it’s going to mean some major changes for me. Since her dad lives 11 hours away, close to Las Vegas. It’s a lot going on right now. I’ve been meditating over a solution to this for the past weeks. Without much success, until last night, when I realized that I’m going to have to relocate closer, to be able to have a close relationship with her. It’s the only option. I love my life, but I am pretty open minded, and I can be happy anywhere (as long as I get to spend a lot of time outdoors!) I can see myself being very happy working with children again, or in the countryside helping someone with their animals/ horses. I’m going to see what doors the universe is going to open for me. I don’t know exactly what the next few weeks are going to have in store for me, I do know that in the end something good is going to come out of it. I know my priorities. I have many things that I love, and are very happy spending my time doing. I got that going for me 😉 

I am going to have to find new homes for my two horses. It’s not realistic to bring them. Even though I would of loved to. I am definitely bringing my best friend Gretchen. 

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A short post to let my friends, and family now that I’m doing good. Have a wonderful Sunday!

Love,

Ms Zen

It’s a very important day today!

It’s a very important day today! My baby girls 6th birthday  No-one have ever brought as much joy to my life as you have.

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I’d do anything for you Princess. Happy Birthday!

Love MOM