Towards The Big Move 

This is my last week in northern California. Difficult to really understand. After a somewhat chaotic Saturday, yesterday was a great day. If you’ve been following this blog for a while, you know that my horse Ghost (originally from a hoarding case with minimal contact with people,) has good days when he’s like a puppy dog, and not so good days when he’s scared of everything. Well, Saturday was a not so good day. Sunday was a GREAT day. Different as night and day. I did explain this to the lady that came to see him yesterday. Everything she said, and did, made me convinced that she is the perfect person for Ghost. She was not timid around him, but still very soft, and present in the moment. She also brought a horse that she trained herself, that came from a similar situation as Ghost. She told me how she trained him, and I saw how the horse acted in different situations, during the time she spent getting to know Ghost. I felt very good about it. So did Ghost. He showed his best side to her. It was relatively easy to ask him to get up in her trailer, next to her horse. I am so pleased with how wonderfully it turned out in the end. That relationship, Ghost and this lady, was definitely meant to be. She sent me a text later telling me that everything was good, the trip, and the first hours in his new home went excellent, and that she LOVED his good mind. How could I not be pleased with that? Finding him the perfect home have been the biggest question on my mind, because of his background, and unique personality. He is in the perfect, for him, home now. 

I still haven’t bought a car, that was another goal for this past weekend, but I’m not stressing out about that. I have the cash, and cash is king. It will work out. I still have a few days.

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Castle Lake, and Castle Lake Trail, with Mt.Shasta in the background. Yesterday the Carr Fire was burning only a few miles from the little town of Castella, where the trailhead to this amazing hike (in the photo above) is located.

Some of you have asked about the fire. These are the latest numbers for the Carr Fire, burning around us.

Size: 201,680 acres 

Containment: 61% 

Expected Full Containment: Unknown 

Fatalities: 3 

STRUCTURAL SUMMARY 

Structures Threatened: 528 

Residential Structures Destroyed: 1,077 

Commercial Structures Destroyed: 22 

Other Destroyed: 500 

Residential Structures Damaged: 191 

Commercial Structures Damaged: 26 

Other Damaged: 65 

Today is also the day when my daughter starts first grade. It’s a big thing. I talked to her for a long time before she went to bed last night. She is very excited. She talked about her teacher, the excitement about making new friends, and showed me her new first day outfit. She also told me that she was not going to be in the same class as her step sister, even thought they are the same age. She did not seem sad about it. They are still going to take the bus together every morning, attend the same school, they share a room, and a bunkbed, they spend all their free time together. From a teacher’s point of view, I am very happy that they are in different classes. I am happy for my daughter that she has a new sister, and I am happy that they get to spend a lot of time together, but from a learning point of view, it is a great thing to separate them during school hours. Maybe some parents think this is shocking, but I know from experience as a teacher, how it holds some children back form reaching their full potential, if they are in the same class as a sibling. Now my daughter have to make her own friends, which she is really good at. She can focus better on the teacher, and actually learning. I know from talking to her on the phone how challenging it is to get her attention, and keep it, when she and her new sister are together. A teacher with maybe 30++ kids in the class would not be able to get her attention. My daughter is well prepared for this day, in every way. She can read and write a little, and is motivated to learn more. Besides English she knows some Spanish, and some Swedish. She excels in math, and knows her numbers up to ten thousand, forwards and backwards. She is interested in geography, and history, having traveled to 48 states herself. I do hope that her teacher sees her potential. She is not shy, but just like me, if she’s focused on something, she’s quiet. A busy person might not understand how much she really knows. I’m looking forward to meeting her teacher, hopefully sooner than later. We have a long line of teachers (and even a principal) in my family, myself included. I know to appreciate a good teacher. It feels weird to not be the one taking my daughter to her first day of school, but I have done everything in my power to prepare her. In the best way I know, and I will be there for her very soon. 

Have a wonderful, amazing day out there!

Love,

Ms Zen

Sweet Memories

The theme of this week’s Sunday Stills, is Lazy Days. Well…I don’t think that I ever been called lazy in my whole life. I’ve been called a lot of things, but never lazy. I like to stay busy. Not in the nervous I can’t relax kind of way. I just feel satisfied when I work with my hands; in the garden, baking bread, grooming a horse etc.

There’s only been one exception, and I enjoyed that exception immensely. It was the first six months of my daughter’s life. The oxytocin high from nursing put me in a content emotional state, that was very relaxing, in a way that I hadn’t experienced before. I rented a house in the beautiful Napa Valley (CA.) It was nestled among vineyards, in a picture perfect setting. There was ten acres belonging to the house, (and the neighbors had a bigger property that I had access to as well.) My daughter and I went for long, dreamy walks, and spent hours on the back porch over looking the pond in the picture. Those are the closest to lazy days that I have ever experienced. I don’t want to go back to them, but I sure appreciate the sweet memory. Looking back, it feels almost unreal.

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A sweet senior dog that adopted me, on the first ranch I worked at in California, is buried overlooking this pond. Neikka was old when I first met her, around 12-13 years old. She refused to leave my side. I knew her almost two years before her time was up. She was definitely sent to make things easier for me. She had problems with her eyes when we met, and later on she became completely blind. That did not stop her from doing her duty, which she thought was to be by my side, no matter what. I sometimes tried to lock her up in my yard (3acres,) if I was planning on going for a longer trail ride, that I thought was going to be too much for her. The fence was 6 ft high. She was part greyhound, and cleared that fence, even after she became blind. One time she even attacked a black bear that she thought was too close to me. The bear wasn’t actually a threat, he was busy eating blackberries. The bear just pushed her away, and kept eating. Lucky for us. She got some scratches from the incident, but not bad. She certainly deserved the most beautiful resting place my loyal Neikka. 

How is your weekend so far? Fancy left for her new home yesterday, and I received photos of her in her new home. Her new family is very happy, and she looks happy, which makes me happy.  I know that they are going to love her a lot, and I feel extremely good about her home. Ghost’s home fell through, and I need to find him a new one. Sooner than later. I said no to several people after this family committed to him, because I really liked them, and they seemed knowledgable. I’ve started to contact the people I turned down before..It was a very emotional day. It ended in the best possible way with a visit to a Mexican Restaurant I hadn’t been to before, and the company of a good friend. 

I’m going to work hard on a home for Ghost, and finding a reliable car for me today. I looked at some cars yesterday. I’m not a mechanic, but if I find something questionable with a car, it’s probably not a good car..lol. Since I am going to drive through the desert a week from now it need to be a good one. Some places on the way have spotty cellphone reception. 

I hope that you’re having an awesome weekend! 

Love,

Ms Zen

Weekend Coffee Share 

Wow, this week have gone by so fast! Maybe it’s the haze, and the smoke in the air that’s lulling me into some kind of dream land? Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m in the middle of planning, an unexpected move to another state? I don’t know. How is your week so far? Grab a cup of coffee and tell me about it! 

How are things here? Well, things are going really good. Unexpectedly smooth. The pieces are just coming together one by one. I’ve found wonderful homes for my horses. They are leaving Saturday (tomorrow…) That is such a great relief. I couldn’t be happier with their new homes. It’s going to be hard to say goodbye to them. My intention was to keep them for life. Knowing that they couldn’t get better homes makes it easier. The first person who looked at Fancy bought her, and her friend wanted Ghost. Just perfect. My intuition tells me that they are really good people. 

I’ve packed all the things I’m planning to bring with me when I move, sold some of the bigger items, and donated the rest to fire victims. I feel light, and ready for new adventures. I’m working my last day here in California on the 20th. Only ten days from now! My goal is to find a reliable car this weekend, and sell my old truck as soon as I have another vehicle. That’s basically the only thing left to do. That is totally doable. I’m going to work a little extra these last days, which is just perfect. I’m slowly finishing up in my garden. I’ve given all my container fruit trees, and plants, to a friend. My tomatoes, yellow squash, and cucumber are still giving a good harvest every day. I’m harvesting in the mornings, and water a little, but I’m not doing much else in the garden. It’s going to go towards it’s natural end eventually. A garden in our extreme climate take a lot of work every day, and there’s no-one that’s going to do the work when I leave. It’s been a fun summer gardening wise. I’m very happy. 

I have several job, and housing offers waiting in Nevada. I want to see things with my own eyes, and meet people, before deciding. That said, I know what I want. When I’m there it’s not going to take a long time to decide. I wish to get into some kind of normal routine as soon as possible. 

I know that there’s been an unusual little amount of photos lately. I’s due to the fire. It’s dangerous to spend a lot of time outside in that smoke. The Carr Fire is now 178,752 acres and 49% contained. Still very smoky. I’m trying to be smart about it. I can’t wait to breath some fresh air, without a mask. I promise to make up for the lack of photos when I start my upcoming road trip. I’m actually excited about the drive. I’ve always enjoyed road trips, and their photo opportunities. As you probably know 🙂

Weekend Coffee Share is a time for us to take a break out of our lives and enjoy some time catching up with friends (old and new)!

Grab a cup of coffee and share with us! What’s been going on in your life? What are your weekend plans? Is there a topic you’ve just been ruminating on that you want to talk about? All are welcome! 

I hope you’re having an awesome week!

 

Love,

Ms Zen