Thank you for having coffee with me today, even though I’ve been so absent for the past ten days or so. How would you like your coffee? I have this really smooth Christmas blend if you’d like to try? Or maybe some herbal tea? Matcha tea?
Work is crazy busy, I mean it is always busy with 29 kids in your class, but now in the days of Covid the number of co-workers present at school for the day vary a lot, and we try to help all the departments the best way we can think of. Some days are very busy. Many people are worried about the situation around Covid, which adds on to the days, you have to take the extra time to reassure children, parents, and co-workers. Things are good, but the threat of the virus is not disappearing, some days it feels like it is the other way around.
I have been commuting to work, taking two buses every morning, and then two buses home every afternoon (most of you know that already.) My “free time” (usually after spending about 12 hours away from home every Mon-Fri) have been mostly dedicated to helping my eight year old daughter to feel on top of her world, making sure she is doing great in school, and that we eat healthy food, get enough sleep etc. . Considering everything, we have been doing wonderfully this fall. It’s been tough at times, but life is good, even though it is busy. I sleep very good at night!
Do you need a refill on your coffee? I do believe there are some gingerbread cookies, would you like to try them?
I like working towards a goal, and this fall it’s been towards upgrading our living space. This week we reached that milestone. On Tuesday we moved in to our new apartment, in a beautiful passive house (closer to work.) As we speak I am sitting in an almost empty, but wonderful space. There is a Christmas tree in the living room, and our photos on the walls, mattresses in the bedrooms, and cupboards filled with food. There is also a unique, handmade kitchen table, upside down next to me, I need to fasten the legs a little before using it. Before noon today I’m expecting a truckload of furniture from Ikea; beds, desks, chairs, shelves, a couch, and other useful items for getting your clothes organised. I’m going to spend the afternoon with a screwdriver in my hand, putting as much furniture together as I can before going to bed tonight.
Yet, there is one, not so little thing, that turned my world upside down last week, all to the better that I haven’t told you about yet. The whole story is long, and very personal, and I won’t go in to any details, but I’ll give you the overall picture. I have a teenage son, that choose to live with his father a few years ago, he has been missing for a while, and turned up in my town last week. He now lives with us in our new apartment, and is going to start school here. I can not describe the immense joy and gratitude I feel in my heart to have both my children here with me. Not having him in my life have been one of those things that are too painful to talk about. Growing up I was always the girl that others pitied, at first when my mom had cancer, and later even more when she died. As an adult I choose to not talk widely about the grief I’ve experienced about not being with my son (I did talk to a few close friends,) as I did not want to be that martyr that other people pitied ever again. Now when he is back my joy is almost overwhelming, and I want to shout it out from the top of a mountain. Of course I am not going to since it would probably embarrass a 15 year old, but I can share that feeling with you. My son and I have had many long conversations and shared tears of happiness this past week. Seeing my two children laugh together is priceless. Ooo, I almost forgot, it was my birthday on Wednesday. It was a joyful day, as you can imagine.
I hope you will accept my apology for not being present for a while. I’m going to have some time before the furniture arrive today for coffee visits, and I promise to share photos of our new place next weekend. How are you doing?