California In My Heart

It’s not the weekend, and not time for the weekly coffee share, but I am indeed sitting here sipping my morning coffee while writing this. My dreams last night took me to all my favorite places in northern California. Approximately 85-90% of them burned this year, first in the Carr Fire (raged five minutes from the house I lived in four months ago,) and now in the Camp Fire. My dream was very real. I was surprised to be in Las Vegas when I woke up.

The first thing I did when I woke up was to read the news about the Camp Fire. It has become the deadliest in the state history. At the moment at least 42 people have died in this fire alone. The likelihood of that number going up is big. The town of Paradise is completely gone. In my mind I can still see the town very well. I can feel the generosity of my first friends in California, as they opened their hearts and homes to me, when I was a stranger. Paradise was a relatively poor town, compared to the rest of California, surrounded by beautiful ranch land. I have not spent so much time in the town, but more in the outskirts. The views used to be stunning. I went on a couple trail rides in the vicinity, and those were very memorable rides.

I hate not being able to do anything to stop this madness. The helplessness eats me alive, as I think of the people I know, and all their neighbors. Some who have lost everything. As I start my day, being safe and warm, with ridiculous good coffee next to me, my heart is there. My heart is in California. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t ever see myself living there again, but a piece of my heart is there. Will always be. So many good memories. ❤



Ms Zen


Published by Sagittarius Viking

It’s all about experiences, and the healing power of nature. Life is about choosing happiness. I entered the magic world of photography when I was five years old. My gypsy soul have taken me to many different countries, and definitely taught me to be more humble. I believe that you are what you eat, body and soul. I enjoy growing my own food, and spending time outdoors. Above everything else is my daughter. A Sagittarius loves to travel, have an open mind and, and a philosophical view. It motivates them to wander around the world in search of the meaning of life. Sagittarius is extrovert, optimistic and enthusiastic, and likes changes. A lot of that perfectly describes me. The fact that my ancestors, on both parents sides, were vikings, doesn’t exactly lessen my desire to explore. Maybe a slightly more mindful exploring, compared to the average viking. My blog, and my art prints is a results of my (inner and outer) explorations. Love, Maria

16 thoughts on “California In My Heart

    1. Yes. I decided yesterday to stop following the news every other minute, and when I did check the news I focused on the goodness in the amazing people in those areas affected. I don’t know what else to do, and still stay sane. There was some pretty amazing news, if you focused on that. Like this one woman rescued 50 horses by herself. Reading on the social media pages of my friends, who have lost everything, they seem to stay positive, and there’s hundreds of people closer than I am offering to help, both financially and practically. That is a relief, in the midst of chaos. I hope you’re having a good week.

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  1. It really is so sad of what’s happening in California right now. I can’t even imagine what they are going through.

    Believe it or not… I was thinking that you might have lived close by when you were in California.

    Prayers for everyone!


    1. Yes, it’s beyond me to understand what’s happening. I did live pretty close. I actually stumbled upon a video of me riding in the woods, in Paradise (the town that completely burned down) yesterday. It was filmed a beautiful fall day exactly seven years ago. I remember that day, and my thoughts. It was the first time I visited Paradise, and I remember thinking how lucky people who lived there were. During the weeks to come I even looked at horse properties nearby, but didn’t find the perfect one.

      I hope your week is peaceful and filled with a good mix of adventures.

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  2. Thanks, Maria. It’s tragic and frightening. The air quality in SF has been in the red zone for days which is nothing in comparison to what people in the Paradise and Malibu areas are suffering.


    1. it is. I can’t really understand what’s happening. How are you? is the air affecting you a lot? Please be careful. I was pretty good at wearing my mask when living close to the fire, but I am still affected by the smoke I inhaled. Be careful. ❤

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  3. What are we to do, how helpless we feel, how heart breaking these fires are and all we can do from afar is pray for everyone and do what’s in our hearts. What a beautiful heartfelt post and I think it does help to focus on positivity and the hero’s that walk this Earth. My thoughts and prayers for all in California fire areas. ❤️❤️❤️

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  4. This has been the saddest fire event to watch. People in our church have families who were burned out of their homes and only just got out with suitcases. We were traveling to Spokane the day the fires started and were away from TV and the news. Ironically, Hugh (a UK blogger) emailed me Friday night to ask if I was OK (told him we live 90 miles south). The smoke has been so had, I have to keep my dogs inside, no walks, and officials closed Sacramento State university campus for two days. I’ve heard some students’ families lost everything, too. No wonder you are having terrible dreams, Maria. Just yesterday, one of my friend’s family members discovered their apt complex was spared. My thoughts and prayers go out to all affected!

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    1. I’m happy you’re so far south. The smoke is dangerous as well. If you’re dogs need to be inside, you need to wear a mask even when just spending a few minutes outside. Take care Terri. With these things you can’t be too careful. It is painful to hear about loved ones losing everything. ❤️

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